How interesting is it that work doesn’t feel like a pressure as soon as you move away from the eyes watching you constantly. I am sitting in a cafe, working on my laptop and have done a lot of it already yet I don’t feel tired but there is a smile on my face, with a relief that I can feel as within so without. I am surrounded with books. They fascinate and attract me but uptil now, all I have been doing today is work. I am trying my best to rest and not be a workaholic but I absolutely love working and I also don’t deny that one of the reasons is that it helps me in escaping my sorrow and spares me with dealing with the lack I feel in my life.
I don’t know why but the more I am getting involved in work, the more pain am I feeling. I am enjoying the work I am doing but somehow, I also feel something suffocating me and causing me pain within my heart and no, it is not because of food because I don’t consume any such food in such amounts that it can possess a threat to my health and well-being.
As I am returning from work,
I saw the sky on the journey
And in it, the orange sun, which appeared
As if it was rising.
Anxiety, doubting and sabotaging selves are pulling me back
Making things in my mind unnecessarily unclear
As I am rightfully enjoying being on the right track,
Doing my job that I love, deserve and had been waiting for since years.
I feel alive when I work, not as much when I watch shows. Nature also feels vibrant—the wind, the rain. However, they are not in my physical touch 24x7x365. So, I want something permanent which makes me feel alive.Continue reading
The phase where things don’t work in your favour is called ‘building the foundation’. It really may be that the only thing that is preventing you from receiving your well-deserved and hard-earned abundance is your planets. You are with yourself but your fortune isn’t. The ones who say that there is nothing called fortune don’t really live in the reality. It is just as important as hard and smart work and planning.Continue reading
I am dividing my responsibilities into chunks
So that they are sorted before they start seeming like a burden,
Before they start converting into junks
Hijacking my creativity and artistic endeavours,Continue reading
Grinding and hustling are not as beneficial in the long run as they sound. They are quite the opposite, rather. Even if it’s self-work, it gets exhausting. I am one of the people who follow the hustle culture because that is how my lifestyle and circumstances have been since my childhood and throughout my teenage. For me, work is a coping mechanism and I have practiced it over a decade before I learnt that it is an unhealthy habit which was not until later.Continue reading
I won’t water myself down or leave all of my work to talk to you.
This applies to this everyone I have to interact with.
I don’t have that bandwidth
Nor will I develop it because I am not in any mood to.Continue reading
I am reducing the gap between me and my monetary success. Well, money is just me in another form that has to flow back to me. Like always, money’s journey to me is pacing up really slow. I am happy that it is not stopped altogether. I will keep trying. I am trying a new method of work now, like I always keep experimenting with everything. I don’t know how long will I be able to follow it but it is making me feel productive and boosting up my confidence so I like it as of now. If not for this routine, I would have believed that I didn’t do anything productive the whole day (which is a lie).Continue reading