Start Over

Sometimes, it happens so that all the hardwork that you do gets wiped off in less than a second because of no fault of yours. Now, what will you do in such a case? Even if you do not have any kind of obligation to complete that task or target, the only option to do it is to start again from nothing. That is a lucky chance if you already have a saved draft somewhere else in whatever format or that you remember what you have written but if it is not so, like if you created each word on-the-spot as the words kept coming in your brain, it is almost impossible to recover those words, phrases and sentences because they were not well-settled or pre-rehearsed in structured way in your brain.

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One Step Crossed

Finally, after 16, 8 and 2.5 years of instances when I faced sexual abuse at the hands of three different predators older than me in age and evil in intention, breaking me altogether and after joining all my pieces to return to the original masterpiece that I am but better myself on my own, and grieving over it, crying my heart out, facing terrible emotional pain which felt like a heart attack every time and coming out of the phase when I wanted to die after giving myself one last chance, now, in this moment, I feel like I have finally broken free from all of those shackles and really feel the burden completely off me. This doesn’t discard any of my sufferings and experiences but I am glad that now, I will be able to experience pure bliss with trust and confidence on him and me in our healthy relationship that I can sense is coming soon. I feel free now.

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