Everything is a burden.
Who are you?
Some days to cry,
to let it all out,
to fight, scream and shout
with the demons residing inside.
Yet again, I woke up to the repititive, terrible dream of my family dieing and me witnessing their death helplessly. Though, psychologically, it represents not the actual death but our perspective or emotions towards us and is a part of our subconscious mind, yet it shakes my conscious mind terribly.
Life is never perfect. This imperfection is a bliss because it keeps our life going. Perfection is the end. Once you have achieved perfection in your life in the complete sense, there is nothing more to strive, to think about, to achieve.
The nature is a blessing bestowed upon humans. Both, being a part of the ecosystem, are mutually dependent on each other. Nature is self-evident, self- born, self- existing but requires the cultivation by the human and nutrition from the waste of the animals to sustain with fertility.
I am happy. They went from my life and made me sad temporarily. But now, again, after I found myself forever, I am happy. I am happy because my happiness lies within me. Also, because I got the opportunity to spend some good and memorable moments in my life to look back at. Self-love makes me happy. The realisation that I have the capacity to make me and everyone around me smile makes me happy.
I learn a lot about successfully sustaining
a relationship from my mother.
She teaches me how, even in
adverse situations, you stay together.
I am on a constant journey of self- realisation and self- improvement. I was a sapling. The storms in my life fed my roots with water and a new life seeped into me. The thick branches of knowledge, experience and wisdom grew from the thin twigs and thin branches of innocence, inexperience and incomprehensibility. I grew into a tree. A tree which is sufficient not only for itself but for the other living organisms as well. The only source of survival it requires is water, of which the quantity may vary according to the situation. It doesn’t stop once it has reached a maturation stage, but keeps growing every moment, every day, every week, every month, every year till its life sustains. It goes through various stages in this journey of growth.
Arjun loved Soyza and Shehan loved Arjun too. But, it was considered ‘wrong’ by Arjun’s family because a boy loved a boy. On the other hand, Shehan was not afraid of accepting that he loved Arjun. Both were victims of cruelty at the hands of Black Tie, which further ignited their passion towards each other. Shehan was Sinhalese and Arjun was Tamil. Also, Radha and Anil Jayasinghe couldn’t marry due to the same caste conflict.