Protection

I am a woman, the protector of man and also, at times, who feels the desire to be protected, by a man. I am the one who is protecting and also, the one who is being protected because all of us—whether we are male, female or belong to the LGBTQIA+ community—have an innate desire, which may be occasional and circumstantial, to feel protected—physically, mentally or emotionally. The existence of community proves this. If nothing, we desire to feel protected from our self-doubts and require a basic sense of validation, which we find in community. Well, then community is a also a source of protection, isn’t it? There are also situations where people are tired of protecting and being protected, so why to obligate yourself? 

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Fall

We are hurt and exhausted. We both faced a great fall in our lives. We give a lot to the ones we love, so much that we forget to love ourselves. I have learnt, though, after processing my emotions throughout the time I devoted to myself, that no matter what, I will never again forget to love myself. None’s entry or exit in and out of my life would affect me so much as to make me hollow and void of love. We will rise.

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I Have to Hate You

For all the lies and disguises you served to me, for sharing my right as a partner with someone who didn’t treat you as a human, for treating me as a toy to please yourself, for me to survive and prevent my damaged heart from shattering into pieces yet again, from breaking my already punchered trust on humanity altogether, for making my heart cry, for me to survive until I achieve all of my life goals, I have to hate you.

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