I don’t like my parents. They pretend to be supporting my career goals but are not actually. They think they know everything about the world and can rightly discern what is right and what is wrong. They do not know anything about the struggles in today’s education system that the students have to tackle with alone. Their is major lack of mental, career-oriented and emotional support in my life.
I became mature,
though I lack maturity.
My inner self has grown up for sure
My outer self lacks surety.
Sometimes, my emotions overtake me and I become overwhelmed. Recently, I went out with my friends, wandering around in the streets of Delhi. While returning, we were all standing since it was late and we all couldn’t find seats to sit together in the metro. Haunted by some past memories, my emotions got triggered all of a sudden and the indescribable desire to cry clouded over. Before I could hold myself together, tears started flowing from my eyes. My friends noticed after a second and immediately started to console me as they were feeling embarrassed that a mature adult was crying among the crowd of the metro. I was amazed at how internalised the repression of emotions has been in the society.
Don’t look back. Why would you wish to do that? Why to inflict unnecessary hurt? They cheated on you, didn’t they? So, why are you bothered what they are up to now? Being friends with your past lover is a fantasy. And you’ll be hurt real bad when reality will strike. They WERE a part of your life. “Were”, you understand, is past my friend.