Maybe, I live in fantasy
but why is it bad really
if it only makes me happy?
I can feel grief inside me
and the urge that only what is right should be
by which my other emotions are affected.
Maybe, both of them are connected.
I may give up on something very soon,
before the moon
sets on the other side of the horizon.
Even its beauty can’t make me change my decision.
Sometimes, we think that we have done our best
and we give up and put our efforts to rest
but it may not be the case.
There may be something left to add in our race.
I believe my new year started with happiness and productivity. I hope it continues throughout the year. I am really thankful that I did not spend the first day of my new year with any negativity.
Anything that comes under my observation—
any act, event or person
can be the inspiration
behind my creation.
There are days when I feel like writing nothing at all. On some days, I don’t even feel like thinking about anything or anyone. I might not be gloomy or sad but maybe just tired or void of thoughts. Even if I try, I am not able to form a composition.
I am missing my ex right now all of a sudden. Why? I don’t know. This is happening for the third time since we separated and every time this emotion manages to make me anxious and my feelings wheel as if in a whirlwind. Today, I even surfed his name and then, as always, that feeling of the regret of surfing him grew on me.
I am numb right now. I fantasised hundred times of hundred things about you and our first meet but all this was unexpected. Maybe, that is why, right now I am not able to comprehend what I feel towards you now when I have finally met you or even whether I do.
I was fed up
and I thought you don’t care.
There were a lot of things
that I had to share