I believe my new year started with happiness and productivity. I hope it continues throughout the year. I am really thankful that I did not spend the first day of my new year with any negativity.
I know I am amazing. Honestly, I am a mystery to myself because I have more knowledge than I can list or describe about and I don’t know when I learnt them but then, there are some ‘obvious’ questions and answers which I have no idea of. I have more than one talents since my birth and I feel good about that because it is a privilege I have. Money is amazing but I never considered it to be a privilege as precious as being positive towards oneself.
I realised this week that I love you but I can’t decipher how should I tell you that. The last time we conversed, you tried to make me confess my love for you but I really thought that I liked you so much because of the intense spiritual connection that we share.
You are more to me
a child than a mother.
You are like a baby.
I am the bud and you are my budder.
There are days when I feel like writing nothing at all. On some days, I don’t even feel like thinking about anything or anyone. I might not be gloomy or sad but maybe just tired or void of thoughts. Even if I try, I am not able to form a composition.
I am missing my ex right now all of a sudden. Why? I don’t know. This is happening for the third time since we separated and every time this emotion manages to make me anxious and my feelings wheel as if in a whirlwind. Today, I even surfed his name and then, as always, that feeling of the regret of surfing him grew on me.
I met a man who was in dire need of love.
He appeared to be harmful.
Everyone told me he has ill intentions.
Since he seemed untrustworthy and disloyal,
they warned me and asked me to be careful.
I am numb right now. I fantasised hundred times of hundred things about you and our first meet but all this was unexpected. Maybe, that is why, right now I am not able to comprehend what I feel towards you now when I have finally met you or even whether I do.
You will gain nothing by sitting idle. Bit- by- bit, you need to work for it. If you notice carefully how you achieved what you did, you will notice that making efforts towards achieving your aim became an unconscious habit and hence, success welcomed you, applauding for you at its door before you could hear its footsteps.
I don’t think I am working
because I don’t feel like I do.
Freedom is the emotion I keep feeling.
It provides me satisfaction that in it’s nature is very true.