The words that you said keep echoing in my mind.
I keep understanding some of their relevance over time
Which you said when my brain was not in the capacity to comprehend them
Or that I was not ready to accept them as and when they happened.
Sometimes, stepping into the unknown can be very scary yet extremely beautiful as it opens a new door offering growth, opportunities, lessons and happiness.
Start with a clean slate.
Shrug off any regret.
Let the past be where it should rest.
Write a new story—fresh and your best.
When the calendar changes to 365,
be it by faith or may it be universal,
the aim of growth in the life
is for each individual and temporal.
A new city, a new state.
Heading off to a new place.
New people, new connections,
establishing new interim relations.
They cheat, you are hurt. They apologize but that doesn’t make it hurt any less. It hurts because it breaks and when something breaks, it hurts. It hurts because you have to detach a part of you and maybe, bid it a final goodbye. A part of you dies but the remaining survives. When someone tries to, intentionally or unintentionally, reignite that dead passion, it hurts because as Amy Denver told Sethe, ‘Anything dead coming back to life hurts.’
Time is sand.
It flows from our hand
As tight we may keep our grip
A pinhole and all of it would slip.
The love that you have held
within you, all of your care
should be enough, rather overflowing
for yourself, then only can you share.
For all the lies and disguises you served to me, for sharing my right as a partner with someone who didn’t treat you as a human, for treating me as a toy to please yourself, for me to survive and prevent my damaged heart from shattering into pieces yet again, from breaking my already punchered trust on humanity altogether, for making my heart cry, for me to survive until I achieve all of my life goals, I have to hate you.
My friends tell me to move on. Well, little do they understand that moving on in life doesn’t make the feelings in you that you have for someone diminish. It just means to accept the fact of their exit from your life. It just means that whatever happens in your life is not my concern anymore. None of it.