Each living moment, I am taking a step further towards your direction.
I know that you are reciprocating too to let our union happen.
I keep working on me but I must it is so tough,
I somehow persevere but almost all the time, I want to give up.
As I am helping me,
You will also have to help me.
I cringe to and I am afraid of touch
Yet I feel safe and seek your comfort pretty much.
I forgot to inform this but in the past month, after doing an exercise cutting off unnecessary ties which keep repeating with the people in my past, I have been able to not hurt over because my mind doesn’t repeat the hurtful incidents as often and even if it does, it doesn’t hurt as much. Instead of getting offended, not only am I realising that what is difference between how I would have reacted to a situation when I was completely unhealed and how I am reacting to the situation where I can say that I am 90% healed. I am okay with going back to the past only based on certain conditions and avoid talking about or even reading anything that hurts me at all. There was a day in this month when the air suddenly got lighter and the heavy energies were loaded off. I could feel it because I am intuitive. These positive energy shifts remove mundaneness and help me from going back to the unhealthy cycles of thoughts or behaviours.
When you say that I don’t understand you,
what if I say that I really do?
What if I tell you
that I have lived you?