My future children, you will be ahead of me
Most of the times or may even not be probably
Because you will become what you will be
With the information you will receive.
Continue readingMy future children, you will be ahead of me
Most of the times or may even not be probably
Because you will become what you will be
With the information you will receive.
Continue readingI wake up today in the afternoon
and I feel light as a bird.
A lot of weight was
keeping me from moving forward.
I can feel that that weight is now
lifted off of my shoulders.
Continue readingIf you will only come when
I am at my best,
only to share my happiness,
I don’t want you then.
I believe my new year started with happiness and productivity. I hope it continues throughout the year. I am really thankful that I did not spend the first day of my new year with any negativity.
I need a major breakthrough in my life to stop myself from questioning my existence any further. The people I am surrounded with viz. my family, repeatedly bring forth the thought of worthlessness in my psyche. They have been incapable in making me feel good and worthy since ever but now, they are attacking my thought of self-acceptance and self-love. I can’t really call them my ‘family’ anymore because there is no such institution like that in my home, at least not for me.
I do not want to sleep right now because then, I will be awake when the other members of my family will be awake. I initially thought that I and my family have different mindsets but they have been attempting to cross my boundaries and enter into my private space for a considerable number of times now. It is really disgusting and they don’t even feel guilty for doing so when I resist rather politely or retaliate. I am just the bad child in the family. Nevertheless, they can not, in any circumstance, enter into my personal and private space. I won’t let them succeed in doing that.
I realised this week that I love you but I can’t decipher how should I tell you that. The last time we conversed, you tried to make me confess my love for you but I really thought that I liked you so much because of the intense spiritual connection that we share.
You are more to me
a child than a mother.
You are like a baby.
I am the bud and you are my budder.
O Mother! Don’t say that
you will separate
and live apart
from any sign of this world.
My dear future child,
if I will ever see you in this life,
I want to make some promises
to you before we meet.