I will express myself however I want to even when money comes and I know this because even though I have implemented one idea only to earn money and I am glad that I help people on the way. The focus, however, is the money that I have to earn by my own hardwork. I have done this before as well. It just cannot be other way because no matter what, I dread doing something having no interest in it but to just earn money and I put in all of my hard work but it goes in vain. Either I leave it or the project ends abruptly. So, the key for me, at least, is to not just work but be happy and content while doing it because anything that makes me dread my work sucks my energy and that is not good for me at all. I love blogging because it helps me vent without having an obligation or being answerable to another and I wish it remains just the same. Whatever doesn’t have the approval of my intuition is all that is out of alignment.Continue reading
Maybe, I live in fantasy
but why is it bad really
if it only makes me happy?
I will say nothing
but make you sit in front of me
and I will kiss your hands
to express the feeling that I have.
Is there a place somewhere
where I can feel nearer
to you, my dear,
without having to reconsider?
I am running out of zeal and energy,
zoning out of time.
I do not earn any money regularly.
I don’t feel like I am doing just fine.
Having to do something you don’t want to for longer period of time, being in an environment where you don’t feel vibrant, being around overtly or covertly negative people suck out all of your energy. Then, you don’t even have enough energy, courage or enthusiasm left to do things that you need (not want) for your being, your survival.
It will work out the way you want.
Just breathe and be positive.
Smile at the terrifying problems and nightmares.
Be empathetic and sensitive towards all.
I am thinking of dropping my college lately. Of course, my parents won’t allow me to but it’s a constant recurrent thought in my mind, not because I wish to follow a trend of famous people but because I feel there is a lot of unwanted energy around me that’s hindering me, more or less, from accessing the best of me and my life.
Everything is a burden.
There’s no force,
a lack to strive
The energy is out of course
and is yet to retrieve.