As contradicting as it may sound but it is true that I am functioning from self-love and anxiety. I am operating from a ‘what if I will stay stuck in this toxic environment that I am in right now?’ thinking. I am working for getting out of it.
#anxiety
No Response
Right now, if you ask any question from me, the answer will be “I don’t know”. Am I okay? I don’t know. What do I want? I don’t know. Why do I exactly not like about whatever or whoever I despise? I can’t really point on one particular reason for it.
A State Of Unrest
I am not at rest. I need my own house and money but I don’t have a paying job for that. The jobs I find are fraud. I know I have potential. I have even written and published my book this year. I am seeing no progress towards complete independence in my life and that is making me feel very uneasy.
Roller-Coaster Ride
This year has been a roller-coaster ride for me, rather a combination of them. I explored myself in the aspects of spirituality, understood and learnt many aspects of myself and experienced death and rebirth countless times. I saw myself having some sort of control over my life and getting a few answers to the questions that I have heard.
Good Things Come to Those Who Wait
O heart! keep your anxieties abate
good things come to those who wait.
Throw away all the worries and hate
and hold on for what the future will await.