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I believe that art is a soul organ of my body. Like the functioning of organ affects the functioning of the body, the what, how, when, quantity and the type of art affects the soul. It can make me question a few or more things, retrospect, yearn and drop a tear or two. It can make me feel like dancing or calm and composed, that too, within seconds. Sometimes, it gives expression to thoughts which want to stir inside me but couldn’t. It can take me back to my self and her experience decades earlier. The disturbance or abrupt end of a song can leave these questions unanswered and increase the yearning to find these answers.Continue reading
To me, Music is an intoxication, only that there are no negative effects of it except to keep fighting and justifying my love for it from childhood to now because brainless people won’t understand it in the first time itself. Why is that even a question? Who questions someone’s passion? Absurd people.
We live not a straight path. Most of the path is spiral and operates within waves and frequencies. Life and Music, hence, reflect each other and contain one another within themselves.
My own voice makes me feel alive. It gives me warmth. Listening to Music doesn’t give this warmth as singing does. Not able to sing my own or others’ compositions or hum the tunes equates to me not feeling as if I am in my body or feel alive.
I will try to tell you
what I just realised
but I don’t think I can say it
any better than this.
I feel slightly like living
when I talk to you.
Music keeps my body and life moving. I lose count of the number of rounds I take and hardly take notice if I am feeling cold or tired when I keep singing while I am walking in rounds.
I am doubting my passion a lot recently. It is like while I am doing it physically and not just thinking about it, I love it and can see myself doing it for the rest of my life but then, there are some horrid moments of solitude where I feel that maybe, it is not my passion anymore and that I am just carrying it forward out of my habit or as a duty.
All of me and my life, I can dedicate to Music. I think that is what passion is. It is my driving force, why I choose to keep living despite facing many dead ends. Though, I want the driving force of my life to be me and nothing and nobody else.
I am doing my riyaaz today
since I am feeling energetic,
that I have the ability to take risks
and in my power after days.