I can feel myself going back to the depressed state of being that I am diagnosed with.  I want to help myself, stop myself from doing so. Sometimes, I win. A few other times, I don’t know what can I do except watch it happen helplessly.

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I don’t feel like getting out of bed.

It’s not laziness; maybe the cold instead.

I don’t feel interested as much in my work;

Get terribly shaken by “little discomfort”.

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Booking the appointment of my next therapy session was being postponed since the first of this month. It is such a huge task whose execution needs a lot of planning and yet, I can’t ever say when, how or if even at all that planning will be successful. I thought of it today, saw the availability and booked the session because it is a priority and there are many things already piled up to be discussed. I have found some answers but there are still many questions in my mind. And oh, my mind, of course. I give it a minute and it starts convincing me to delay or cancel on attending therapy at all because it gets stressed. Thankfully, this time, it doesn’t have so much time that it can do that because I am going to be busy in work and will be doing the work related to the next session. As for the update, I had already felt it intuitively, like I felt another cycle coming to an end intuitively before it happened in the 3D reality. Weird ways of life, I can say, or maybe some karmic contract reached its end. Whatever. I am quite processing it and quite not.

Every day is a struggle

Each moment is a challenge,

Any random moment, I start feeling anxious.

This has nothing to do with my vibration.