After my breakup, when I was not yet as completely over it but still considerably was, I chose to find a partner. I didn’t want to do anything as I had done previously so I couldn’t think of any man who was my friend that he could be my partner. The messages folder of Facebook was filled with the messages of men that I didn’t want to reply to at all. Also, I have a habit of not going in the past. So, I decided to date someone completely new. Obviously, I couldn’t find that person by sitting on my bed whole day and being an introvert as I still am, I will never be comfortable to just casually talk to a stranger. My life was certainly not centered around men at that time but since I am in a girls college as I was even then, I was suddenly void of the active presence of a male friend or acquaintance who I always had throughout my 13 years of school life, however introverted I may have been.
After deactivating and activating my account on the dating site I switched to for days, weeks and months, one day, I saw a profile of a man. Interestingly, his age exceeded the limit that I had set for in my profile, which was not more than 1-2 years. The first judgement was completely based on the outlook of the profile. I was super-impressed by his profession and hence, decided that I will talk to this gentleman at least once and wished that I should get a chance to do so. So, the request was accepted and he started the conversation and the rest followed suit. But he was not at all who I would have expected to clash with or mingle with if we would have met otherwise. I didn’t expect that gentlemen existed still. He was not my wish granted. Over time, I realised that he was more than that.
After almost a year and a half since then am I able to recall how it all actually happened. The memory just flashed back for a second. I wanted to record this for myself for the moments when I want to recall the beginning of this beautiful association full of respect and honesty. I thought that this will last only uptil a conversation but as they say, it just clicked. It really did. I never had any man of my dreams but I had only wished for a gentleman which he is truly. Since then, I just adore him more and more everyday. I just never get tired of crushing on him since then.