I will try to tell you
what I just realised
but I don’t think I can say it
any better than this.
I feel slightly like living
when I talk to you.
I can’t explain this any further
because I do not know the reason
of what and how I feel.
Though, nobody except Music
can purely make me feel alive.
I can live happily without you
but I can’t survive without Music,
whether I listen, learn or sing it through
dealing with my life experiences.
I am sorry if it hurts
but I can’t keep you first.
It seems like I am unable to release you
but I can’t leave Music ever
because it will that I am leaving myself.