It feels good to be known but I feel better when I remain in the unknown and my work is appreciated and better, constructively criticised instead. Do you know me? Do I know myself?
The intensity of my love for you may fluctuate
but it doesn’t go in and out.
No matter what I may say,
it is only you who I keep thinking about.
My spectacle is covered with dust.
I cannot clearly perceive this world.
I cannot understand what is it that I feel,
how much is there that I need to heal.
To my seemingly forever,
maybe, we are not meant to stand together
firmly in this weather
or it may happen never ever.
Everything you do, do it from a distance. Do not get attached. Love— from a distance. Earn— from a distance. A thing you should not do from a distance is to enjoy. Enjoy while being completely in the moment. Live that moment like it occurs once in a lifetime.
Having to do something you don’t want to for longer period of time, being in an environment where you don’t feel vibrant, being around overtly or covertly negative people suck out all of your energy. Then, you don’t even have enough energy, courage or enthusiasm left to do things that you need (not want) for your being, your survival.
I am turning off the faucet—the faucet from which my emotions related to romantic associations flow. I can’t afford to get hurt any more. It will cost my mental, emotional and sometimes, physical strength too.
In this moment, honestly,
the recurring thought in my mind is
that how beautiful will it be
when I will die finally.
There is no particular thought in my mind.
My mood keeps switching since this morning.
I am feeling extremely low.
My mental health has taken a toll.
We always to want to fill in the blanks. What if it isn’t filled? Blank is nothing but a space. Instead of getting terrified by it, we can use this space to ponder over the journeys of our lives until that time.