Right at this moment, I need something. I don’t know what or who it is. I am scrolling through the YouTube videos and thinking about my immediate target and my ultimate target that I have to achieve before the first day of the next year.
I am watching videos related to spirituality or based on college. Though, I know certainly that I am not searching for a muse. I am not even mindful. I am unable to concentrate on anything. It is as if I am searching for something that I need that I am consciously unaware of.
This search for that something has put me into a state of unrest. I am feeling like I am trying to grab something that exists in the air, that I will be aware of once I get hold of it. Maybe, I need to dive a little deeper into my psyche and explore it to find my answer.