Are they all looking at me? 

Do I even look good? 

Am I doing things as I should?

Oh! This social space never lets me be free.

 

I used to be bothered too much 

when I was younger in age

but these thoughts only caged

my mind from matching its potential.

 

I didn’t sow their seeds though.

They crept inside my mind

because the judgemental people

who I met in my life 

repeated them so many times

that I started to think so

and indulged in self-doubt.

 

They still bother me at times

and make me anxious

when I have to perform on stage

in front of my audience. 

 

Their intensity and duration

has now reduced however.

Yet they haven’t left altogether.

They can re-surface in any unexpected situation.

 

My self-love and self-acceptance 

are my shields.

I do not feel

social anxiety 

in any situation anymore.

 

Even if people point out what I lack, 

I remain as confident and answer back

with sarcasm that hits them

like a soft hammer on their head.

 

Now, I am confident in my being

as I was when I was a child,

unaffected by the norms of society

and victorious over social anxiety.

 

Unconfined

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