Are they all looking at me?
Do I even look good?
Am I doing things as I should?
Oh! This social space never lets me be free.
I used to be bothered too much
when I was younger in age
but these thoughts only caged
my mind from matching its potential.
I didn’t sow their seeds though.
They crept inside my mind
because the judgemental people
who I met in my life
repeated them so many times
that I started to think so
and indulged in self-doubt.
They still bother me at times
and make me anxious
when I have to perform on stage
in front of my audience.
Their intensity and duration
has now reduced however.
Yet they haven’t left altogether.
They can re-surface in any unexpected situation.
My self-love and self-acceptance
are my shields.
I do not feel
in any situation anymore.
Even if people point out what I lack,
I remain as confident and answer back
with sarcasm that hits them
like a soft hammer on their head.
Now, I am confident in my being
as I was when I was a child,
unaffected by the norms of society
and victorious over social anxiety.