I need you right now
though I can’t meet you right now.
You are no lover of mine
which makes it easier to talk to you
about what is going on in my mind.
Talking to you during therapy
gives me a sense of clarity
and an outlet to talk about my pain
without feeling any compulsion
or pressure, as put by society,
to just force myself to be happy.
I know I can talk about it
to you without any fear of judgement.
What makes this connection better
is that there are no emotions, whatsoever,
involved between the therapist and the client.
It is understanding yet professional.
There is no compulsion
or any kind of performance
to behave in a certain way
in this connection.
You will not be upset
on my portrayal of rage
rather will try to understand the reason
and identify the hidden pain.
We need to talk about
and sort a lot of things out.
That is why, I am looking forward
to meet you soon.
Though after every session I attend,
I think that this will be the end
but then, such events happen
that make me brood
or they inflict or resurface the immense pain
that rests inside my unconscious.