My mind has its own ways.
It decides which thought goes
and which emotion stays.
Sometimes, it plays a movie of my woes.
It decides my mood by the days,
hours, minutes and moments.
Sometimes it allows other emotions to be felt
while some of my days I can only feel numbness.
On some days, my senses are vulnerable
and I have to tolerate a headache,
shaking and a feeling of heartache
which are all intolerable.
Some days are regular
and other days, I wonder
whether I remember
how is it to feel normal.
It is an unknown
mystery on its own.
Mostly, it is ruled by anxiety.
When not, then only
is it able to regulate my body.