I am trying to know myself.
Everyday, I surprise myself.
I am trying to dig deep into the ways
that lead me to where my feelings stay.
My likes and dislikes change
as I keep transforming.
I hate to stop at a place.
To avoid feeling stuck, I keep moving.
I have started to like this state
of numbness in which I am in,
devoid from any kind of feeling.
It allows me to think.
Though, the only thing about this state
that I hate
is that it almost snatches away
my ability to create.
Even if this peace is an illusion.
I like that I don’t feel anything.
Maybe, now I can avoid all problems
and live peacefully without thinking.