I am trying to know myself. 

Everyday, I surprise myself. 

I am trying to dig deep into the ways

that lead me to where my feelings stay.


My likes and dislikes change 

as I keep transforming. 

I hate to stop at a place.

To avoid feeling stuck, I keep moving.


I have started to like this state

of numbness in which I am in,

devoid from any kind of feeling.

It allows me to think. 


Though, the only thing about this state

that I hate

is that it almost snatches away

my ability to create. 


Even if this peace is an illusion. 

I like that I don’t feel anything.

Maybe, now I can avoid all problems

and live peacefully without thinking.



My Dilemmatic State Of Numbness

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