There are two places where I feel at home, where I feel that I belong. First is my music class and the second is the Delhi metro. Here, I get to see different kinds of people.
Patriarchy affects all–men, women and the LGBTQ. It burdens, encircles and traps them within its suffocating norms that are followed since older times and are no longer relevant in today’s age of feminism and equal rights, opportunities and recognitions. There is actually no need to carry this burden on our society anymore. A society would not dismantle if patriarchy will not exist.
I exist as a woman
and you exist too.
You can’t possess your domination over me.
I can’t regulate you.
I struggle to understand myself. I feel the extreme of emotions or nothing at all. Sometimes, I think that I know what is happening but suddenly, again, I feel that I have become clueless. Sometimes, I have so much optimism and energy that I feel like lighting up the whole world. At other times, and more often than not, I don’t feel like coming out of bed.
This is for all the men and women who believe in patriarchy and not feminism. If you believe in Christianity or know about Adam and Eve, you would believe that Eve was created out of Adam’s rib. So basically, Eve was created as a part of Adam and to serve him.
Try not to hype
things up in your mind.
Try to stop your thoughts from juggling around.
Try to calm down.
There is no masculine, feminine, male, female. If there is, it is within us. There are no such categories that we stupidly have been using to create society and stereotypes. We don’t have to prove ourselves as men or women. I am thankful to my guru because of his capability to teach well, not because he is a male.
Guru dakshina. Have you ever heard of this practice? Not every student is so lucky to be a part of this practice. It marks the auspicious, pure and more than divine connection between a guru and a shishya or a teacher and a student. It is a token of honour that you can give to your guru for their teaching.
Fear of judgement. This is the only fear which I have not been able to get rid of or heal from even after being on the self-journey. I fear judgement. So much that it prevents me from sharing my abilities and knowledge with people. This is why I doubt if I could actually narrate my thoughts and maybe, that is why I chose to be confined to writing and not narrating.
I am perplexed.
I can’t comprehend
whether I want to get
lost or want someone to locate